Finding Gratitude in the Healing Process

I teared up a little again re-reading this. It’s sad. It’s sad that I was in such a place of hopelessness that I moved in a way that was unhealthy, in a way that ended up toxic and that now I’m healing from. Yet at the same time, I am learning to have gratitude for the push—the push to truly heal. Heal from past traumas that landed me in this situation to begin with. If it weren’t for this experience, I don’t know that I’d be taking the time to really discover myself, to heal, and to become a better, stronger individual. And I definitely wouldn’t have this story to share and help others.

I’m learning to live with more gratitude in everything I do, in everyday life. I can only guess I really wasn’t “feeling good.” I couldn’t have been. I was trying to convince myself of something, a feeling, that wasn’t true. I clearly wanted more, but I chose to settle for what I could get. I thought any affection and attention was better than nothing and sought that regardless of the circumstances.

It’s wild to read because I feel so different already. I know so much better already, and I’m going to move so much differently next time because of it. And for that, I’m grateful. I’m grateful for the lessons learned and for the opportunity to grow. I’m grateful for the chance to rebuild myself from a place of genuine self-worth and self-love.

This experience, as painful as it has been, has also been a catalyst for profound personal growth. It’s helped me to confront and address the deep-seated issues that I had been carrying for so long. It’s forced me to reevaluate my choices and to understand the importance of setting healthy boundaries and valuing myself.

By sharing my story, I hope to connect with others who might be in similar situations, to offer them a sense of hope and solidarity. We all have our struggles, and sometimes it’s through the hardest times that we find our true strength and resilience.

Thank you for being here with me on this journey. Your support and presence mean more than words can express. Together, we can learn, heal, and grow into the best versions of ourselves.

Thank you so much for being here.