Reclaiming Power: Embracing My Authentic Self

The repetitive use of "my position"—wow. I seemed really determined to live into that and not overstep. I seemed so "good" with the circumstances, or at least trying to convince myself I was "good." "Great," even. I wasn’t. I know I wanted more; I always have. Still do. The difference now is that I know I deserve more. That I am worthy of more. The behavior I endured was because I lacked that belief in myself. My behavior was indicative of my disbelief in those things. I wasn’t being honest with myself. I was accepting the only thing I thought I could get, the only thing I seemed to have a history of getting.

But I know now that’s because I wasn’t healed. I know now I was attracting what I was putting out to the universe. I know now I’ll find my person when the time is right, when God allows, and when I am healed. I know I’m taking the right steps, doing the right thing. I know I’m heading in the right direction, and I’m excited for what’s going to be on the other side.

This realization is both painful and liberating. Painful because it forces me to confront the truth about my past choices and the lack of self-worth that fueled them. Liberating because it means I’m no longer bound by those old patterns. I’m free to create a new narrative for myself, one that honors my worth and my capacity for healthy, loving relationships.

I’m learning to be patient with myself, to give myself the grace and time needed to heal. Each step forward, no matter how small, is a victory. I’m shedding old beliefs and behaviors that no longer serve me, replacing them with self-love and self-respect.

By sharing my journey, I hope to connect with those of you who might be struggling with similar issues. Know that you’re not alone, and that healing is possible. It starts with acknowledging your worth and making choices that reflect that belief.

Thank you for being here with me, supporting me as I navigate this path. Your presence means the world to me.

Thank you so much for being here.