Reflecting on Boundaries and Self-Worth

It's honestly a little comical to me in retrospect—then, not at all. The disrespect and lack of concern for my feelings were evident from the jump. I thought I had it under control. I thought I was moving and making the best decision for me by stepping back, setting a boundary, which is good, but I think my intentions weren't the best. For me, it was a game, not about setting the foundation for how I wanted and needed to be treated. That's what needed to happen.

I was definitely hurt and frustrated because here I was again, spending and giving time to someone who didn't care. It was exhausting and extremely frustrating. Getting to know someone new takes a lot of energy, time, and commitment, and feelings inevitably get involved. So, I thought the answer was to shut down—to not be authentic to myself or demand the respect I deserved, standing firm in my boundaries.

It's wild to read back and realize it could have ended then. Could I have done something differently? Absolutely. Do I regret it? No, because I firmly believe everything happens for a reason. But I could have made better choices. I could have stood in my worth, set my boundaries, and not faltered.

I'm learning that now. I'm doing that now, and I'll do that in my next relationship. This journey has taught me the importance of self-worth and the necessity of setting and maintaining healthy boundaries. It's about understanding what I deserve and not settling for less.

Looking back, I see how much I compromised my own needs and values to fit into a relationship that wasn't right for me. It’s a tough pill to swallow, but it’s also a powerful lesson. I now understand that boundaries are not about playing games or trying to control the situation. They are about protecting my well-being and ensuring that I am treated with the respect and love I deserve.

As I continue to reflect and grow, I’m committed to standing firm in my worth and setting boundaries that honor my needs. I know that this will lead to healthier, more fulfilling relationships in the future.

One crucial aspect I've come to realize is the importance of self-awareness in recognizing and addressing my own patterns. By understanding my tendencies and the reasons behind my actions, I can make more informed decisions that align with my true self. This awareness helps me break free from unhealthy cycles and empowers me to create the life and relationships I truly desire.

Thank you for being here with me as I navigate this path of healing and self-discovery. Sharing these experiences helps me process my journey, and I hope it resonates with those of you who might be going through similar challenges.

Thank you so much for being here.