Self-Discovery: Finding Joy in the Present

This entry was super interesting to read because I can sense some growth. Some self-worth and self-respect. Boundary setting. I see myself starting to set the foundation for how I want and need to be treated and communicating that. I see myself prioritizing me, yet still being open, vulnerable, and authentic. However, I do think my intention was still wrong. I was going about it in the wrong way, with the end goal being a relationship rather than enjoying the present without expectations.

I’m learning that life and relationships are more about enjoying the moment, being intentional in sensing our soul ties, and not rushing to intimacy or affection. I think my loneliness overshadowed what I truly desired. My want for anything outweighed whether the situation was healthy. I wasn’t loving life; I was sad and hopeless. I wanted anything that could give me what I thought I wanted and needed, even at the cost of being hurt again.

Now, I know to wait for love. Now, I know to enjoy and savor the moments and relationships as they are. Now, I know that once I'm healed, love will find me because I'll be ready and capable of accepting it. I’m hopeful for that. And if not, I know I'm fully capable of living life on my own. I’m not alone; I have a great support system. I have a greater purpose. And I am worth so much more than a person who isn’t capable of fulfilling my needs.

I was convincing myself then, and now I know and have faith that I’m going to be great either way. This journey has taught me the importance of patience, self-love, and living in the moment. It’s a continuous process of growth and self-discovery, and I’m grateful for every step along the way.

I’m learning to be patient with myself, to give myself the grace and time needed to heal. Each step forward, no matter how small, is a victory. I’m shedding old beliefs and behaviors that no longer serve me, replacing them with self-love and self-respect.

By sharing my journey, I hope to connect with those of you who might be struggling with similar issues. Know that you’re not alone, and that healing is possible. It starts with acknowledging your worth and making choices that reflect that belief.

Additionally, I’ve realized that growth is not linear. There will be setbacks, moments of doubt, and times when the past seems to overshadow the present. But it’s in these moments that we must remember our strength and resilience. Every experience, every tear, and every moment of reflection is a step towards becoming the best version of ourselves.

Thank you for being here with me, supporting me as I navigate this path. Your presence means the world to me. Together, we can build a community of healing, understanding, and empowerment.

Thank you so much for being here.