When All Attention Isn’t Good Attention

Our relationship started off well. He seemed interested and attentive, which I loved. However, not all attention is good attention. I wish I'd known that then. He had a lot going on, which I had no part in from the beginning. But I remained and chose to stay because he seemed to have everything else I wanted, and self-worth was something I now know I didn’t have.

Our first date was okay, not the best. He talked nonstop, and I barely said anything, but the attraction between us was strong, and I found myself drawn to him. That was enough for me despite it feeling like a game—sweet talking. I chose to get to know him and give it time. I was convinced I wouldn't fall into the same patterns I always had. I did anyway. It’s saddening.

It all happened so quickly. From day one, we were inseparable—locked in. I didn’t even see it coming. The whirlwind of our relationship swept me off my feet, and before I knew it, I was entangled in something I couldn’t easily escape. Looking back, I see the red flags I ignored, the signs I overlooked.

I was so eager to find love and validation that I accepted behaviors I shouldn't have. It's clear to me now that my lack of self-worth played a significant role in my decisions. I believed that having someone interested in me was better than being alone, even if the relationship wasn't healthy.

This realization is part of my healing journey. Recognizing my patterns and understanding why I made certain choices is crucial to my growth. It’s painful to admit, but acknowledging these truths is the first step toward reclaiming my self-worth and building healthier relationships in the future.

Thank you for joining me on this path. Together, we will embrace the lessons of the past, heal from our wounds, and find strength and resilience within ourselves. Stay tuned for more insights and reflections as we continue this journey together.

Thank you so much for being here.